Getting Started

I have never blogged before so forgive my transgressions as I start out. I love to write and share my thoughts, and I do it a lot on Facebook. People always tell me: “You should write a blog since you have so much to say”. Is that their way of telling me that my posts are too long? Or that I’m annoying? Maybe……Some people tell me I’m funny and that is why I should blog. So here I am, giving blogging a try to see what happens.

Something that you should know about me is that I try to see the lighter side of things…….usually. But I can be dark and angry too. It’s a Scorpio thing. I am also a marriage and family therapist but I am hiding my identity because the purpose of this blog is not to become famous (ha,ha), or to have clients and colleagues know it’s me. The purpose is to share my thoughts and also perhaps sometimes share something therapist-like, but not be defined by the whole therapist thing.

I admit I spent quite a bit of time setting this blog up. It took weeks for me to think of a title that I liked, or a tag line that I thought was halfway decent. Choosing the picture was another feat. It wasn’t easy to get started. I almost gave up, but I kept coming back because this is something that I was determined to do. I had to start this to prove to myself that I could follow through, because in the past I flaked out on things a lot. I procrastinated. I quit. I even quit college (Twice) for stupid reasons. I used to never finish anything. Ever. I used to piss off a lot of people. And then one day, I quit procrastinating. I started to follow through no matter what. I finished college. I got my Master’s degree and became a therapist at the age of 40. And then……..things really changed. I was on a roll. I quit procrastinating and I followed through, and finished what I started. Even though some things take me longer than others, I still finish what I start, and I never used to. Ever. Some people ask me my secret. I really don’t know why I was able to just stop procrastinating, with important things anyway, because I am really good at procrastinating about cleaning the house.

Some people actually try to bring me down and say that I have a Type A personality, and that I’m too anal. No, I don’t, and I’m not, I just follow through. There is a difference. I know that some people look at my progress and my small successes with a scowl and disdain, maybe even envy, jealousy, but I have learned that is all about them, and it has nothing to do with me. I often wonder what one of the people who tell me derogatory things would do if I actually did what they said. What would happen if I quit working, shaved my head, quit taking care of myself……what would happen? I am betting that those same people who try to bring me down would then tell me I’m a loser. I guess some people are never satisfied. Lol. So, I trudge on, working on myself every day, trying new things, ignoring the negative comments and viewpoints. No one really knows me. No one really knows what I’ve been through. Because if they did, they would know how hard it was for me to just write this little blog.